Breastfeeding struggles

I have to be honest and admit that breastfeeding has not being easy for me. It has been only until this moment that I can say that the pain is almost gone.
The first weeks were very hard. I wanted to give up and just give her formula; and at the same time, I felt useless and cruel as a mother. Why wasn't I able to give her my milk like the other mothers do?  The pain was awful, I cried several nights and I could not feel satisfied with my experience.
My husband kept pushing me to continue breastfeeding her and I will always be thankful for that. He made me believe that I could do it. So I listened to him and kept going even when I was feeling that I was going nowhere... And it got better! Somehow the pain became less and less and I started to enjoy my natural job!
My heart felt full when her newborn sized clothes became too small for her.
To this day, it still hurts a little bit and sometimes I need a break so I give her a bottle and that does not make me feel less of a woman.

She is a happy eight week old baby. She is always smiling and moving her extremities!

I feel so happy that I endure and hold on. Being a mom has been the hardest job I've ever gotten but it has been the most rewarding & satisfying one!

Harlow's two month old update

Weight: 8 lbs 2oz

Diaper size: 1

Clothing size: 0-3 months

Health: great! 

Sleep: She is getting better! Our little peanut is starting to sleep more through the night. She only wakes up once or twice, I nursed her and she falls asleep again. The only problem is caused by me: I am letting her stay in our bed (yes, I know). I am not planning to co-sleep at all, I will try to be more strict, I promise.

Diet: 98% breast milk and 2% formula. There are times when my breasts are empty and sore...

Loves: She truly enjoys daddy's kisses and her little Mr. Patito (her bath duckie)

Dislikes: She hates to be put down and left on flat surfaces. She cries like you're abandoning her, poor munchkin. 

Milestones: She looks directly to your eyes and pays attention to Mommy and daddy's voice. She holds her head up for some seconds and smiles and laughs often.

Speech: She coos and makes cute little sounds in respond.